November 2009
10 posts
What do you do when the person you love, the person that is worth more than the whole world to you, tells you that you don’t exist anymore?
*sigh.
Yawn.
I’m sleepy. I’m in Temecula, CA. It’s like.. between LA and San Diego.
I’m at Cat’s grandma’s house. It’s hot. I’m uncomfortable. I’m sitting on an Ab Lounge.
I finished my CSU, USC, and UC applications. I submitted them but.. it doesn’t feel like I finished them. I hope they’re okay. I hope I didn’t mess up.
Hmmm.
Ugh.
I really hate myself sometimes.
Oh Man.
Here comes the stress again. One more week. Just one.
Inevitability.
I can’t sleep. I need to write.
So it’s come. The period in time where the discrepancy between our age actually matters. I’ve dreaded this day. Before, we didn’t have to worry. We didn’t bother with the fact that I’m one year older. One grader higher. Now, it matters.
Life is unfair. If there really is a god, I’d punch him in the face. And then I’d...
If Only.
If only ______. You’ve probably said or thought this sometime in your life. “If only I had studied more … If only I had set my alarm … If only I had remembered.”
- Regret: a feeling of sorrow or remorse for a fault, act, loss, disappointment, etc.
If only. If only, if only, if only. If only I could go back in time. If only I could change that one little thing.
I...
I hate learning things the hard way.