It’s just past 3am and I’m still awake. I couldn’t sleep, so I decided to play Ninja Gaiden.. for 2 hours. I thought it would tire me out, but I’m still wide awake.
I’ve been having trouble sleeping and staying asleep lately.. oh well. Nighty night.
Sucks when someone doesn’t like you, doesn’t trust you. Especially when their opinion matters. Especially when they have an influence. Especially when what they think affects what you can do.
Such an impediment.
July 12-13: Santa Clara University Orientation Session 2
What a great two days. Since high school ended, I’ve kind of been lounging around doing whatever I felt like doing. Attending orientation gave me that “Oh, it just hit me” feeling. I’m actually going to college (this basically happened when everyone, including myself, was freaking out about registering for classes, etc).
I am honestly excited to start college. Even though I’m commuting to school, I still feel that a lot is going to happen. A lot of good things.
is gulit, because if you’re feeling guilty, you’ve probably done something wrong. Guilt plagues you and suffocates your mind. All you can think about is what you’ve done.
Now guilt riddled with shame.. that just sucks.
This is like… mindblowing. I can’t believe this is really her, what the fuck, why would she sing that other crap when she can sing this?
OH MY FUCKING GOD. JESUS LORD THIS IS AMAZING. <3
What in the actual what?
This is actually good. It sounds similar to Alanis Morissette. I wonder how heart-broken she was when her record company told her they would sign her as long as she didn’t sing music like this and could only sing the way the company wanted her to sing. I kind of feel bad for her now, but she got her fame. She’ll probably end up coming out with an album like this in a few years.
I missed my exit driving home tonight. I also made a wrong turn in my own neighborhood. The reason? I was drowning in my own thoughts. My mind was flooded with them. Guess I was just in a pondering mood.
I realized that when people get mad, there’s always a reason, either rational or irrational. Regardless, there’s a reason behind the anger and frustration. But you know what? That specific, directed anger reveals something about a person’s values. It reveals what we really care about.
Person 1: His close friend says something disrespectful about Person 1’s sister. Person 1 gets very upset. This reveals that Person 1 cares deeply about his family.
Person 2: Her friend tells her one thing but ends up doing something else. Person 2’s friends say they care about her but then end up going against her. Person 2 is deeply hurt and frustrated. This reveals that Person 2 cares about friendship, trust, and honesty.
Person 3: Person 3 is walking around with his girlfriend. A group of teens walk by and make snide remarks about Person 3’s companion. Person 3 is on the verge of beating the shit out of the group of teens, not only for insulting his girlfriend but also for not having any restraint. Person 3 cares about respect and dignity.
Interesting how what we get upset about ultimately reveals what we treasure the most.